Fear
Even with the ever perishing light I cry...I hate the dark yet it only seems to grow closer. Why does it grow closer even when I fight it? Why does the light seem to fade?...Why? To this day, 7 years since I started being myself, I havn't cried...I want to though...But it is so har to let go of the past...all the pain...I'm afraid
Written on 4/10/09
Labels: Little Thoughts
Wind Stories
The wind tells stories to those who listen...But what stories could the wind hold you ask? The wind is everywhere and its stories come from where it as been! I have listened to the winds as long as I have known, yet in till now no two stories have been the same...In till now that is...Now I have heard a story repeated 3 fold...This story shook me to my very core, so I'm only going to tell it once...
"The end is coming, the wind will stop when light and darkness come together in peace...It will happen soon, and when it happens the world will start to end...but Wind has chosen a way to stop the end...but the truth will be hard to see...it is hidden within a world that is held by two"
That is the story I have heard, so now you know and have been warned...
Labels: Little Thoughts
The Grand Project
With the world set in motion
And the time unwound at last
Is there a chance to undo what has been done?
The Destroyers have made there move
And erased the keys of the Grand Project
There numbers and voices are too many and drown fixers
The Fixers have tried to stop it
But have only delayed it from happening
There numbers and voices are to few and small
The goal of the nameless
It was to make the Grand Project last forever
But every plan has a mistake
The nameless made the humans to keep the planet in balance
They made them in an attempt to make a creature that was able to live
Able to live through the cycles and movements of the universe
And the Grand Project
But in order to live they must have the power to think ahead
This was the Grand Project’s undoing
With the power to think humans had the power to destroy
This power was labeled the Destroyers
Yet there was a loophole they left
This hole was meant as a failsafe for the Grand Project
Because with the power to destroy comes the power to restore
This power was labeled the Fixers
Yet the Fixers where silenced because the Destroyers where too many
Even with help they couldn’t win the first trial
Yet there was a way that was overlooked
Because the Grand Project is living, it can choose what to do
It takes time for this because the Grand Project was not made to go fast
And if the Humans where to listen, they can here its decision
“You have lived and grown of my spoils
You have evolved and named me as your home-world
Yet you treat me like I don’t live”
“The choice has been hard, but if you don’t change your ways
Your time and life will end if you continue your ways
Please make the right choice and help me live my life longer”
This is the voice spoke by the water and wind
By the sky and stone it is also told
Yet we have just started to listen to it
Now that it is being listened to, will we follow what it says?
Or will the Destroyers rule once again?
Will the Fixers start to make a path for the future?
The Grand Design has told us to change in its own ways
And we need to listen to it
My choice has been made to listen to the Fixers
Do you listen to the Fixers and aim for the better?
Or do listen to the Destroyers and continue on the last path?
The choice is yours to make and yours alone
Make the choice that you feel is right.
Labels: Little Thoughts, Poem's
Love and Life
I know that I'm different, but I thought it was because I'm a Lycan....But sometime in the near past I learned that it is
not only because of this, it is also because I see the world threw my heart...Strange, isn't it? I guess that would explain why I can help people with there lives...I like doing that, helping people with there lives because it shows me how other people react to life's problems...Yet I wish that how I help people would work to help me...yet for the life of me, it doesn't...Love to me is an enigma...Oh I understand it, but I can't find love...Why you ask? Well, because it is harder for me to do so...No, nearly impossible! Sure, I've been interested in females before, but never in the terms of 'Love', and it has never gone both ways...I have experienced allot of the problems that I've solved in my friends lives...Like thoughts of suicide, Crazy addictions, and thoughts of killing people have all passed threw my mind, but never any real thoughts of Love...Why? I want to truly experience all the parts and feelings of love, I want to know the pain that it brings, the tugs at the heartstrings...yet I want to feel the udder comfort that it brings, the things beyound friendship that are there, the knowing that I will always have my love to look to for the problems with my life to be solved...Is that so much to ask for?
Labels: Little Thoughts
Choices
There are too many choices to pick…At least for me. Sometimes I wish I was like a dog, where all I have to think about food, a place to pee, and company. Sometimes I feel like I have to make the biggest choices, but I know that some of them don’t even matter…I don’t want to make the wrong choices because they may hurt people, they may hurt my Friends…I’m afraid that I will lose them if I do make the wrong choice…I’m afraid that if they do leave that they will take with them part of me.
Labels: Little Thoughts
Why?
Why? I was chosen for a task, one that is somewhere near, yet far away.
Why was I chosen to inherit this soul, the soul of another yet my own.
Maybe its because I didn't have a future, maybe it's because I was properly aliened with the soul, or maybe its because fate decided to intervene. Fate, it always come back to you, doesn't it?
Sometimes I used curse it, my other half. But only when I don't know what to do. Other times I praise it for helping me see clearly, to see what mankind has done to the earth. And now and then, I puzzle over it, tyring to find out why it came to me.
Or at least, that's how it was two years ago. Now I understand, I accept what I am and what it has done, it helped me lay the path I now I walk along. I now cherish what it has changed in me, and I am glad it came to me and opened my eyes. Now I see with eyes unclouded by hate and greed.
I'm ready to go when my task is able to be seen by me eyes, the only thing left to do is to wait till it's time
Labels: Little Thoughts
Fate
What is fate? Is it something that is set in stone, or is it flexible?
Is there only one fate? Many? or is there none at all?
Can fate's be intertwined? Do they flow alone?
Do fate's even move at all? Do they just sit there,waiting till it's there time, and fall into there chosen hands?
Fate is a mystery that is not there to solve. Yet it IS there, floating just in sight, but out of reach of both body and mind.
Is what I say just what fate decided? Maybe...
What I say could not even matter,but that is only for fate to know.
I say that fate can be intertwined, swirling in and endless torrent of rivers, never traveling the same one twice.
I say that fate is always trying to find a shape, but can never deside on a single one.It is many, but only one.It is controlable, yet it is not.
I follow the path I choose...Do you?
Labels: Little Thoughts
